So it's now 4:05pm and I have just gotten out of bed, only to go back as soon as I finish typing this or at least trying without screaming in agony. Last night (or early this morning depending on how you look at it) at 12:30am I decided to move. Bad idea. No, I wasn't researching new apartments or packing up my belongings, I simply decided to move, as in act alive, move my body, walk, talk, etc.

My shoulder had been sore the entire day but nothing new as I frequently have some shoulder and neck pain. But at 12:30 my neck decided to lock-- all the way from my shoulder to the base of my skull. Oh my god, there is nothing more painful. Seriously. 9 out of 10 on the pain scale and that's only cause I always think there has to be something more painful.

I ended up spending three and a half hours in the emergency room last night and that was all treatment time as there was (gasp!) no wait. As tears were running silently down my face (sorry to be dramatic but that's the way it really was) they gave me a Valium and super-strength Motrin (which was the biggest pill I have ever swallowed in my life). Perfect. I should be feeling better right? Yeah... nothing. Didn't even take the edge off.

Next course of action-- give me a shot of Morpheine. That definitely should do it, right?? Nope. Still feel as shitty as ever and now that several hours have passed of being in neck lockdown I can't take it anymore. How the hell does a shot of Morphine, a Valium, and tons of Motrin have ZERO effect on me?

So the last resort was a shot of Dilaudid, apparently stronger than the Morphine shot. Only after my super cocktail of Dilaudid, Morphine, Valium, and Motrin did it take the edge off the pain. :( I walked out of there dizzy as shit, not to mention I had 2 beers before this whole ordeal occurred, but still in almost unbearable pain.

Got home, puked twice from too many painkillers and went to sleep uncomfortably. I'm now on Skalexis and Percoset, which is doing pretty much nothing. I took two Percoset and a Skalexis and that basically brings down the volume of my screams of agony from 100 to 98. I'm taking them every 4 hours too and all I can do is lay still like a corpse in bed and require assistance to sit up.

I'm supposed to see a spinal surgeon after all of this. Great, just what I need. Another doctor. The X-rays showed my spine is permanently straight at my neck, not curved like it's supposed to be. So basically this will happen again and again. Perfect.

I won't be responding to any email today or doing pretty much anything. It's pretty unbearable, who am I kidding it IS unbearable to even type this, but I felt obligated to. So back to bed for me. Hopefully I'll be feeling better tomorrow. :(